i was too late to come home and blog last night. the internet got cut exactly at twelve.

Saturday, woke up uber early. i couldve slept longer. rushed to school, it was 8.15, and none of my teammates were there yet. not a single one. went to check the gym and the toilet, nobody. called Xinpei, and she said shes at home. came out. saw Peiting and Jiajing with a lost face. yea, they came and saw nobody too.

had gym and ball training. felt this weird thing under my left foot. i felt like something tore when i was trying to jump. okay, it happened twice. and no idea what was that. got caught wearing ankle socks after i took of my shoes to take off my keeguard. coach made me stay at push up position for so darn long. idk how long though. my arms couldnt take it any longer, just as when coach called my name, i fell to the ground, face wet with tear. i realized theres a puddle of water right where my face was when i collapsed. kind of pissed with everything suddenly. even coach. why? i havent been like this before. i actually threw tantrum. and it was actually my fault for wearing ankle socks. i could have just find another longer pair of socks. fuck the world man.

so i was hesitating whether i should go for WBA. i was alone this week. heard that many of them went last week when i didnt go. since i was already emo-ing, i didnt want to go home, i went. reached UWC, head straight to the toilet, expecting coldness. all i feel was heat. the air-conditioner was spoilt. fuck. i'm already so moody and the heat definitely didnt make me feel any better until i get to talk to Penghui and guys. they definitely cheered me up. played HORSE with Darren. like obviously he'll win lah. oh yea, did i mention the hall was un-air conditioned too? i sweat fucking a lot. never this much at UWC before. basically because it used to be so cold. anyways, i got cut while snatching a ball. i know, its just a cut, no big deal. but the thing is, i have no idea how. i just felt that theres a cut. when i took a look, theres blood.

chatted about volleyball with Darren. it started off with the topic of entering NP next time, then join Wheelpower. i was like, but i think i'll continue with volleyball. they told me i wont get into the school team. its by invitational. i was like, WTH? and all these years i've been training for just 3 zonals? so not going to happen. nonono. if thats the case, i'll make sure they invite me!

so i bus-ed home with Penghui instead of train-ing back. so yea, its almost twelve by then.

woke up at almost noon today. tried to complete my homework, but obviouslt its not. sighs. bus-ed to NorthPoint to meet sissie for dinner. saw Zhonghao in the bus. so theres company. chatted with him till he got down the bus, and sissie came up the same bus too. ate at Ishi Mura, walked around. shopped at ColdStorage. bought quite a lot of stuff. especially something thats going to keep me awake in class tomorrow.

alright, i think i'm getting up to catch the final match later. and shit, i still have homework to do. SHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHITHSHITSHITSHITSHIT.