so we had 3 tests today, Physics, Emaths and English, consecutively. and i've done badly for all. so basically, theres only art lesson today. as for CE, theres this teacher named MrPan. so when Vivacions greet him, they actually was looking at me. and yea, Pan being called many times.

so i stayed in class for a while, helping with the class notice board's decoration. yea, the waves. the first one is the best, and the last 3 just suck ttm. Chaoyi helped too. and i was late for training.

i thought it was outdoors, but no, indoors. as we were training, we get to watch the rehearsal of tomorrow's performance. which i didnt wish i had watched it just now, because it wouldnt be exciting anymore when im watching the real one tomorrow.

i got so upset with myself again today. just the same old thing which i wished that i didnt cry. i wish i could control it. but it just came without warning. why is it always after training that im crying? volleyball didnt make me sad. but i think its the failure in volleyball that pisses me. nobody see me cry when i perform well right? when i got a thunder spike, when i killed a ball, when i earn a point. these are all what matters a lot to me. i think if im not able to do those, im just going to be miserable after every single training. obviously i dont want that to happen. i know im a good player, yes, i definitely am. i will be even better if i can control it. i just hope that i can, and this will never come back to haunt me again.