i was right about staying at home. and the same thing happened. i bought new pens and notebooks to motivate me, but it didnt work this time. held my pen for about half an hour while watching tv. after all the shows i wanted to watch, ofcourse i have nothing else to do but homework. after clearing the able and brought down my assignments, my eyes felt heavy. its always like that. but i know why. i have been sleeping at around 5am for 3 nights in a row and waking up before 10am. duh. so i took a nap on the sofa. before i knoew it, 4 hours had passed. my brother came back with HelloStranger cd. he finally rented it. obviously i watched it right away. negleacted the stack that was right before my eyes. so disappointed in myself right now. i should be. .

the team must have missed Siewming and me alot. HAHAHA. LMAO. we're both in Thailand. wanted to meet her that day when she was in Bangkok. wasnt free. so she's in Phayao now. so going to meet her when she comes back to Bangkok again around 26th or 27th. heeeee.

anyways. i was talking to Xinpei a few hours ago. i was worried about my position in the team since im away from training. obviously everybody wants to be in the main. either six or twelve. but i think twelve is not for me. six is. if it was by ranking. i would want first. heard from Xinpei that coach praised me today. i was happy. OBVIOUSLY. but i didnt hear it myself. its a different feeling. yknow. i would smile for days if i heard it.

okay, going to bed early today, byeeeee.