am totally in no mood to blog these days. honestly, i don't want to. blogging is the only way that im going to remember my past. yea, i don't write diaries. well, used to, irk? its lame, but i got lazy. and my diary is not even a quarter full. so i gave up writing diaries.

so my life aint any better. wenesday, thursday and friday. all the same. deadlines for holiday assignments are on fire at my ass. which i haven't completed any since then. sleeping really little each night. and its only the first week of school! i really felt like giving up school. LOL. its just a feeling okay? it wont happen. i want the O levels cert. it will be like one of the greatest achievement vie ever thought i would get. provided i get good grades. so im going to do my best this year. but i wont promise. my limit is really low. cant expect a lot from me academically. so i volunteered myself to be the class vice chairperson. but wasn't voted. sighs. so i made myself the green ambassador. the reason is, i want some leadership certificate in my student portfolio, and another point for my CCA report card. seriously, im going to use the word jealous. im jealous of the captains and councillors. for captains, especially Chaoxin and Xinpei. they got a point each year. and captains usually don't change for our team. maybe for other sport CCAs. so until now, they've gotten at least 4 points for being captains. and representing school? how many more? and plus other things. obviously compared to people like me, im like a nobody in school that plays only volleyball. the points i get most is from representing school for 4 years. and coming to councillors. my name were in the list. i went for the activities they organized, and the next day was supposed to be the interview. i fell sick. and that was the first time that i fell sick until i felt like i was going to faint. like, is this a sign that i shouldn't be a councillor? so until now, im jealous of councillors that they get many opportunities to do things, and the get points. imagine if i were to be one of them. by now i should have hit A1. okay, ive gotten another point this year. and i don't know what grade does that make.

alright. many Birthdays came crashing in this week and next. and im still busy with holiday assignments! the dead dead deadline is on monday. yes. and i still have Emaths, English and Geography to be done. thinking about it, i think i shouldn't even be blogging now. no time management huh? i really think im hopeless. will i be able to do anything in my life properly? like, anything. sighs.

anyways. had training yesterday. coach didn't come. she was sick. so throughout the training session, i think doing this is no point.

rushed home to shower. rushed to meet Kianshen and Minghwee at CausewayPoint. yea, to buy Siewming's birthday present. i thought they bought it already. but well, im glad i was there to choose between one and another of which to buy. it was like already 7, so we walked to Siewming's house. i thought we were late. but guess whuttt. no one reached yet. so we waited a while. went down to fetch Xinpwi and Xintien, then Albert. Kas couldn't come. :( so since W2F8 were formed, we haven't have an official meeting yet. so went went up to Siewming's house. and began our steamboat barbecue dinner. and i seriously whine over a crab stick. haha. because i was barbecuing it for so long, waiting for it to turn crispy. then Kianshen just took it. grrrrr! i waited so long! and it was the second last piece! so they gave me the last one, and Siewming went down to get 2 more packets of crab stick. haha. so i had the idea of barbecuing something else. i barbecued fishballs. didn't taste so bad after all. heeeeeee. after Siewming opened all the presents. Kianshen and Minghwee were doing magic tricks. i was really fascinated my Minghwee's trick. even after they kind of told me how. i still couldn't do it. so time flew. and before i knew it, it was 11.15. i had to reach home before 12! Albert had to reach home by 12 too. so we left Siewming's house and all went home. Albert sent me to the bus stop, and waited with me. waited for almost 20 minutes, and it didn't come until Albert had to leave. so i reached home later than 12. aunty didn't nag. surprising huh? or she didn't care anymore? if thats the case, id be more than happy.